Hectic morning.
Making kids school lunches, filling water bottles.
Finding socks and hats. Helping with the zipper that doesn’t want to work.
Turning off lights before running out of the door to take kids to school.
When I drive off our driveway I am already thinking my long to-do list for today, and my mind is wandering here in my blog, and I’m thinking how I live life to the fullest, and how I am going to share it with you today. I know being a work at home mom, and being able to take kids to school every morning is a luxury to me that I wouldn’t give up for anything. But on mornings like this, feels like this is everything but living life to the fullest. I see a squirrel running on the road getting ready to be squashed under my car tire, and think even if I’m not living life to the fullest right at this moment, at least I can let that squirrel live.
I turn my wheel and the little animal is saved, but at the same time I hit the curb and hear a pop.
Dammit, that was one expensive pet squirrel that I never see again, and I guess I will be working from home with three kids today, because there is no way I’m going to start changing a car tire on the side of the road with three kids and a dog.
I don’t think my husband’s morning was any better, especially when I deliver him the news. He shouts something not at all like him “you kill the squirrel, not the tire” – he never gets mad, and is an animal lover, so I think it’s better to just hang up on him. I understand. I was stupid. Both, hitting the curb and hanging up on him. But like I am not already blaming myself!
I come home with kids, tell them they can play at home today.
I think there is supposed to be a lesson learned by this story.
Maybe it is that sometimes doing the right thing is the wrong thing to do.
Maybe it is that doing the right thing is never the wrong thing to do.
Maybe it is just understanding that life always isn’t champagne and caviar, and understanding that even if it isn’t, there is beauty even on the mornings when your tire breaks, and you are forced to slow down.